Home.

I'm home now. I've been here for two days... sleeping mostly. I was really lonely when I got up. My sis and mom were at work and my bro was still asleep. So it was just me... and loneliness. Sad. But then the Lord comforted me. I think the fact that i "lived" with 58ish other college students put me in that sadness when i got home. But the Lord is SOOOO GOOD. I think He's preparing me for september when I go to Spain. I have no idea what community is going to look like over there. BUT I know that despite all those factors, The LORD is my strength, my portion forever. How greatful am I... SO greatful!

Anyway, the Lord taught me so much this summer. How much I need Him is one thing. I think it is so cool to see that the more you walk with the Lord, the more you see you're sin which then makes you want to walk with Him even more. So it's a neverending process. I pray that it would be just that in my life... NEVERENDING.

I hope to visit Athens a few weeks after school starts but I'm not sure when. For those of you in Atlanta, I'll be calling you in the next few weeks to get together before I leave for spain (sept. 19th)

Breakdown

I can't think of another word to describe the last few days down here. Sooo much has happened, and yet there's so little time to describe it all. The past week i have felt numb to many things. My passion has seem non-existent and my heart had hardened to so many things. BUT, the Lord is good and sovereign. I'm still learning who He is and about His grace, And HIS desire for me. How perfect and ENOUGH He is. And so I have found this role of leading to been good, stressful at times, but good.

And the King has brought me to my knees at HIS feet several times... and I'm sooo thankful. I felt so much emotion last night. Worship was soo Amazing for me. We sang "Be Thou my vision" and "So I wait for you" at least I think that's the title. Either way, the Lord put me in my Place. He was/is Faithful in my prayers. I asked for emotion/feelings/ SOMETHING, and He def. gave it to me and continues to. I just think of Hosea 6:1

"Come let us Return to the Lord, for He has torn us that He may heal us; He has broken us, that he may build us up."

And so: Psalm 6:9
"The Lord has heard my plea, the Lord accepts my prayer"

Words cannot describe... And so time is not important. Love you all... Be back in Canton Aug. 2nd and I'll make a trip up to Athens very soon.

Today...

So I was persuaded to get a blog... and so here I am. I'm not sure what this will be like, but hopefully I will keep up. Today might be rather long because I feel like I'm catching up...

I got my first support check... Raising support has been so scary the past couple of years, but God has just given me this confidence that, well, I can't describe. I know that it's not about the money, I mean that's NOT what my confidence is in at all; it's in the Lord and it's about trusting Him with ALL.

"Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." Hebrew 11:1

It's so cool to grow from trusting in the Lord. You know, like REALLY TRUSTING. And it's crazy how much you ENJOY Christ in, well everything, but even something like support raising. He's just soo good.

The support raising is for this summer's Beach Project with Campus Outreach (CO). In a NUTSHELL: Summer training program for college students to learn about and grow in their faith. I'm going to help lead the project this summer with 5 other students and the staff of CO. I can't even imagine really what it will be like... It's weird becuase i've been to 2 other projects, but they were both VERY DIFFERENT experiences. Anyway, I'm excited to pour into the students, specifically the girls. The Lord has and continues to teach me soooo much. My prayer is that the He would use me in whatever way to in turn teach them.

Last night at the Summer Beach Project (SBP) leaders' retreat, the Lord BLESSED me with such sweet words from a sister. It was so cool b/c although it was a complement to me, it was not ABOUT me... it was/is ABOUT HIM. I started to become embarrased and then proud, but then the verse hit me:

"All flesh is like grass, and all it's glory like the the flowrer of grass. The grass withers, and the flower falls off..." 1 Peter 1:24

and that's when the Lord BLESSED me b/c it is HIS glory and not mine.

How greatly am I loved...