Looking up

Things are better.  Last Friday I had some real time in the Word.  Before then, I felt numbness to it... which really means I FELT nothing at all. In fact the time before I fell asleep... it just wasn't real.  Anyway, last Friday was sweet, and then Sunday was even Sweeter.  I got to go to the Birchwood Trails next to memorial park and just spend time thinking, praying, and loving the outdoors.  Which I do feel such a great connection outside.  Anyway, it was great.  And since then I have been able to pray, memorize scripture, and just be with God without feeling fake about it.

I definitely struggle though.  It can be rough.  But it also can be beautiful and amazing at the same time.  Anyway, God is good.  I have to constantly say that out loud.  This world is not good.  I have to constantly remember that.  If I don't remember these two things, I can get very confused and frustrated. 

Other stuff: 

South Africa is on the move.  I'm starting to raise support which is sooo scary.  But such a God thing, I know.  It is biblical to give and receive (sometimes I forget this too).  

Also, it's  been discussed several times that I may buy my sister's car.  Nothing's for sure yet, but please pray that God would show me what to do.  

I GOT A JOB.  I was just hired at Timothy Rd Elementary as an after school program teacher.  This is sooo exciting because I love kids SOOOO much! They bring me such joy.  

So God is totally answering prayers.  It's just crazy because God is real and He shows me that through things like this.  

Anyway, thanks for all the support.  You guys are such an encouragement to me.