...And it's always been here

"You struggle to be free, but really you're free to struggle."

This is what my roommate Tatum shared with me when I told her how I felt like I was just struggling to be free.  She said she would never forget when her pastor said this.  I didn't fully understand it at first.  But as I contemplated it I realized the meaning... At least the one it gave me.  I was "struggling" so much just to "feel" free.  But the truth was and is that I'm ALREADY free.  And I'm going to struggle.  Struggle with sin, with emotions, with the world... with a LOT.  And that's okay.  The Lord had set me free that day on the cross, and now I am free.  If I'm not struggling through some of those things then that might not be good.  There should battle against things of this world.  I shouldn't be okay with those things. 

BUT I shouldn't see that as an ending to a story, either.  SIN is not the end of the story.  You can't let it or anything else own you.  And really, I think that's what I was doing.  On February 12th, at the end of this valley, I pulled this out of the verse box that Caitlin made me:

 "Keep steady my steeps according to your promise, and let no iniquity get dominion over me." Psalm 119:133

How amazing is God that I would read this in a time where I was letting sin have control over me!  I was being a slave to it.  

Anyway, my friend Ashley reminded me on how I needed to update my blog and therefore update with YALL! The Lord has shown me so much truth through all the same resources He uses in my life.  The Word, Prayer, Time alone with God and seeking counsel.  He is GOOD.  

I just realized... literally, just now, that it was 6 days later that I pulled this verse:

"Into your hand I commit my spirit; you have redeemed me, O Lord, faithful God."  Psalm 31:5

And He has... He did that day on the cross, He does today and He will tomorrow.